Haven't been here in a while.
Got really nothing to whine and complain about,that's why.
GOD is good. So everything as of this moment is pretty much smooth sailing.
What more could I ask for?

I've been focusing more on the other blog that Nicole and I are maintaining
http://alphanikki.wordpress.com/

I figure,there is a lot more I could talk about GOD rather than myself

This life is not all about me,this world is not mine
This life is HIS alone,this world is for HIM to conquer

To HIM be the glory forever and ever

Part 1 here
http://alphachristina.xanga.com/702324850/kissing-dating-goodbye-the-history-part-1/


March 2008,I finally get to meet this guy that I've been talking to for almost 3 months. We were having such a great conversation that I thought,maybe just maybe,he is the one exception to the rule. That I can take a chance once more for he could be "the one". Turns out,he is just like any other guys I have met in the past. I have once again,given a piece of my time,effort and emotions to the wrong guy. My heart that hasn't completely healed yet,received another crushing blow. And so I was upset and bitter. I feel rejected and neglected.

Days turn into weeks and finally into months. The feeling of bitterness slowly faded until I can no longer taste it. I am learning to forgive and forget. I am realizing that I need to stop looking and searching for LOVE in all the wrong places. That I need to stop trying to look for the RIGHT ONE and start becoming the RIGHT ONE first. And for me to be able to do that,I need to seek and love GOD above all else.

But does my struggle stops there? No,it didn't. It is an everyday battle that I need to deal with.

June 2008,the month of Resolved Conference. The 4 day conference that changed my whole perspective on looking at things and the way I regard my relationship with GOD. With 12 exponential sermons from highly gifted servants of GOD,I got a rude awakening. "What if I die today,where will I go? Heaven or hell? How did I live my life? Was it glorifying to HIM? Did I live enough for GOD to get my ticket to heaven? Have I served HIM with all my heart? Have I done my purpose and carried on HIS will? Will I have any regrets? What if I end up going to hell? Would I be able to take it?" Those were just some of the thoughts that ran through my mind. I was startled and frightened by the thought of hell. Surely,that is the place I don't want to be. I know I needed to make a change on the way I live my life (that includes my social activities,leisure and source of entertainment,dating life and everything else)  for me to be able to give glory,honor and praise to GOD in every aspect of my being.

I was very determined to make it work this time. I was excited to make a change.

But little did I know that a month later (July 2008), I will find myself guilty of breaking one of the rules in dating. Thou shall not date your Ex-boyfriend's bestfriend. Yes,we just gone out once and it might not be a big deal since they are no longer friends but whatever happened to me making a change? Have I just lost my mind and put myself into self destruct? Seriously,what was I thinking? Two wrongs don't make it right! It was uncalled for,could have and should have been avoided! And I got no one else to blame but myself. So I asked GOD, "Lord,how many more times will I keep hurting you before I get it right? I am sick and tired of living like this. This is not how it is supposed to be." Ashamed as I was,I came down on HIS feet and begged for forgiveness.

On August 8, 2008 (08-08-08 as I put it), I was overlooking the city of long beach from the hilltop park in Signal Hill when I wrote down my promise to GOD to let HIM be the author of my love life as a covenant-a binding agreement. I thought,maybe that was lacking the first time. Maybe writing it down as a formality will make a difference. I was hopeful. And so for the second time around, I tried to kiss dating goodbye.